Dec 31, 2016


"There are places I remember 
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better 
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life ... I've loved them all "  - The Beatles 

Dec 20, 2016

Cool Vancouver bombers that started in a garage - and made it to the top

Let yourself be silently drawn by the strange pull of what you really love. It will not lead you astray.  - Rumi

Cool Vancouver bombers that started in a garage - and made it to the top: Bomber designer Collar Kenny is creating original jackets you won't find anywhere else.

Nov 23, 2016

My heart hurts ...

such a beautiful soul ... and tht endearing smile ... gone too soon ... you will be missed greatly ... Rest easy Trent "Bones"  ... 

Here he sits .. 
waiting .. 
patiently .. 
for a love .. 
tht has no end .. 
nor a beginning .. 

Nov 20, 2016

Take a ride with me ... he said .. 
it was a rollercoaster .. walked through the fire .. 
through the destruction ... mine .. yours .. 
and yet .. here we are ... 

Nov 14, 2016

With life as short as a half taken breath .. dont plant anything but Love .. 💗
~ Rumi

Nov 10, 2016

Happy birthday , my love ...

The one thing tht you have tht nobody else has is you .. your voice, your mind, your story, your vision... So write and draw and build and play and dance and live as only you can  ~ Neil Gaiman

Oct 10, 2016


My heart is so small , it's almost invisible.
How can You placed such big sorrows in it ?
"Look", He answered, "your eyes are even smaller, yet they behold the world"

Always knew ... something good will happen ...

eventually ... one of his many dreams came true .. so proud of the boy!! 

#9 #son 

Sep 26, 2016

A Prince ... Jorja Smith

Why am i gonna apologize ?
What have i even done ?
Why you acting like you lost a crown
If you were never wearing one ?
Falling ever deeper , dealing card now
Now you can't recognize yourself on the deck
I thought i was your queen of hearts
But all the aces stole the check ..

A prince, a prince
A glorious game
A prince, a prince
Checkmate till you stole me away

Cursing words, am i a pauper now ?
Even though all my shoes do fit
Wont even let me leave the house past 12
I aint no fairy tale chick
Happy endings cloud your head now
You have put your expectations too high
Sit on the bed, tears running down our eyes
Once upon a time , i wonder why .....

Oh you let me down , my king

Sep 17, 2016

ARFC Home Season Opener

The season has started ... Saturday is rugby day! 

Men's 1st Div 

Men's Premier 

Aug 29, 2016

Universe - Solitude

Une femme chaque nuit
Voyage en grand secret ....

Je veux t'embrasser je t'embrasse
Je veux te quitter tu t'ennuies
Mais aux limites de nos forces
Tu revets une armure plus dangereuse qu'une arme ..

~Samuel Beckett

Aug 27, 2016

Proud mama moment ...

he worked hard to get where he wanted to be ... i am so proud to be able to see him achieve one of his many dreams ... #lovewhatmatters #lovenomatterwhat

Aug 21, 2016

The after party ...

a year older ... and still couldnt figure out the ways of men ... #afterpartyshamelessselfie

Aug 3, 2016

Love shouldn't hurt

"She speaks to me fondly of passions and talents 
guitars and stars
then stop short 
and apologizes for speaking at all ..

All because somewhere in her life 
someone she loved broke her heart
by ignoring her beautiful words 
and telling her to shut up .. 
keep it down ..
nobody cares .. 

People aren't born sad ..
We make them tht way .. " 

Aug 2, 2016


My love couldn't keep you 

Tonight i can write the saddest lines ... 

To think tht i have lost him .. and and he is no longer with me .. 
The silent of the night ... seem so loud ... so deafening The verse of each line ... falls onto the page ... like rain drops ... shattering the soul ... 

My love was not enough ... 
It was never enough ... 
to make you stay ... 

Day 2 - Magenta's playlist ... "your words how they cut me to shreds" 

Aug 1, 2016

Hello August

#bulletproofsoul #yourstruly

20 more days ... should be interesting ... dont think I have changed tht much ... still the socially awkward ... painfully shy person ... but I do have amazing kids with me now ... and I have loved .. lived .. torn up .. got back up again .. made new friends along way ... lost a few too ...

have no regrets ... on anything ... just taking it as life lessons .. although i dont deal with drama all too well ... then again who does ? .. I love my solitude .. only let certain people in ... and it is a small circle ...

I do love fiercely ... some may see it as a flaw ... but not I ... because when you love someone ... you have to give love wholeheartedly .. and let them know tht they are loved in such a way ... leaving no room for doubt ...

So 20 more days ...

Day 1 ... Magenta's playlist xoxo

One day I will return to you ...

Good food ... Awesome company .. 

Jul 26, 2016

The Truth About Your Heart ..

Your heart will fix itself ..

It's your mind you need to worry about ..
your mind where you locked the memories ..
your mind where you have kept pieces of the ones tht hurt you ..
tht still cut through you like shards of glass .. 

Your mind ..
will keep you up at night .. 
make you cry ..
destroy you .. 
over and over again .. 

You need to convince your mind .. tht it has to let go .. 
because your heart already knows how to heal .. 

~Nikita Gill 

Jul 20, 2016

Summer ...

places to go ... people to see ...

sand ..sea ... and sandals

Jul 15, 2016

Rugby ....

BCRL Grandfinal
Abbotsford Griffins vs Capilano Cougars

son is #4

Jul 5, 2016

I love you so deeply .. even welcomed your darkness ... 
but somehow ... tht wasn't enough for you ... 
and you left me ... staring blankly into space ... 
while my world fell apart .... beneath my feet ... 


Jun 27, 2016

ARFC Griffins - Rugby League

huge win for the Griffins in round 4 of the BCRL Championship .. 


Jun 19, 2016

Happy Father's Day

Happy Father's day .. Dad .. thank you for being all tht you are ... and all tht you've given me in life .. love so unconditional tht has no ending .. Hope you'll have a great one today ... loving you from afar ...

sincerely  - your quiet rebellious daughter .. xo

Jun 11, 2016

Love me some JS ....

I have loved another love
In another place like this
I've been held and felt so safe
Oh yes , I've kissed another kiss ..

ARFC Rugby 7s

Scenes from AbbyVIPMazda 7s 

always love, to watch the boy play rugby ... but this time it was priceless .. he battled against a rugby 7s legend , Serevi ... proud mama moment right there!

May 30, 2016

My weekend ? ... these are the places where you'll find me ... xo

May 29, 2016

I love you  as certain dark things are to be loved .. in secret .. between the shadow and the soul  - Pablo Neruda 

May 8, 2016

Mother's day ...

They colour my world with emotions ... and fill it with love .. unconditional love .. Happy mother's day to all ..

Apr 24, 2016

A weekend of rugby ... #clubsweep

After a weekend of rugby .... Abbotsford will now be sending all of its 4 teams to BC provincial championship  , next Saturday . The finals will be held at Klahanie Park, West Vancouver. 

The club is looking to win 4 for #JC .... #dothebusiness #wintheday #ARFC 

Apr 21, 2016

He loves you more ...

Sometimes it snows in April 

woke up this morning to such a sad news .... 

to me .. he was a musical genius .. most of his songs ... 99% of his songs are like soundtrack to my life ... i can easily relate to them ... he soothes me ... he cries with me ... and he gets me .."I wish you Heaven"  my prince ... "nothing compares 2 U"  ... and now i know why "sometimes it snows in April"

Starfish & Coffee  ... my baby girl and I .. sing along to this every morning before school ... #love

"sometimes it snows in April
 sometimes i feel so bad , so bad
 sometimes i wish tht life was neverending
 but all good things they said never last
 and love, it isn't love until it's past "


Rugby ...

it's a family ... where i belong .. #ARFC #rugbylife 

Apr 19, 2016

Omnia Mutantur ....

"you have a beautiful soul ... and you deserve someone better" - sometimes words can cut you .. and tear your soul apart ... but such is life ... those words are so subjective ... tht finding the reasons behind what was said ... seems pointless and confusing ... ~nv~

Thinking about you ...

do you think about me .... still ...